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Life is Choice

Royal College of Music I think I need to study in this university. Why? Simply because I do want to balance my right and left brain. Often people dislike it, but who wants to hear such negative comment? You see, I am such a self-driven person. I gave up all the facilities from mum and dad only to prove them that I can be there. I think I should tell mum and dad in order to get permission. But they always concerns about "earning my diploma/degree". I think I should do it. I think I should live until I really feel the need to give up. I think I was so irrational, but who cares? No one even cares about me. No one even loves me, EXCEPT my family ofc.  I am sad because people often misunderstand me. They often misguided me. I know some people might let me go so often that I won't be one step ahead. So, I just know.
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I Think

I think it's OK to go abroad, study, and not return to Indonesia. Why? Because I still can send money to my parents, supporting my brother in terms of college tuition, and my sisters in terms of gifts. You see? It's easy to me. However, dad always wants me the dignified way. Not the rebel way, lol. He is such a good person, i know. However, he is too old. Mom is too old. You see, when I sat and ate Shabu Tei with them, mum was shorter than me. It means, she is TOO OLD. Damn! 
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Tired

I felt tired today because I am such a burden. To daddy. To mommy. Wanna get scholarship abroad, but they doubted me. You know, that kind of stupidity. They think I didn't know that they're over protected. But no. They didn't know it yet. That I am so fvcking wanting the scholarship abroad. Dad said," Get your bachelor degree first." Mum said,"Get healthy first." I felt like shit yo. 
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